I'm sick sick and very sick. Practically living on medicines to make myself feel better and sleep better. Anyway, things has been going as what I've expected. not like i feel its wrong or anything, but i already knew it before the truth came right infront of my face. I fully understand why things are like that and its not anyone's fault, but it just ain't nice to some extend. I told Paul just now that "never make someone a priority that makes you an option". Its very true indeed. Maybe i wasn't even in the priority list thats why I'm easily replaced by other people. Or perhaps I'm just there to fill up the missing blanks on the list, so as to make the list look nicer. Once awhile, i do that too and i fully understand the feeling sucks, but i came to a conclusion that life is suppose to be like that.

I told Paul that if I'm gonna continue to dread my life because of all these stuff, I'll probably have a very miserable life at the end of the day. I want to learn to be happy and contented just by thinking, "wao i have my favourite crabs today", "i made it to school in time". I want to be happy for the simplest things in life and learn that i do not need amazingly huge gifts and stuff from people to make myself a happier person. Whether i want to be a happier person or not depends on myself, and if i have a choice now, why not i just choose to be happy? Sound quite pathetic right? LOL. But well, i only have 1 meal today, and i'm really glad! HAHAHAH.

To Tasha:
hey girl, i'm sorry if i sounded like i didn't bother about the you know what. i just hope you won't get affected by the messages that you've seen. I just wanna let you know that it won't be an issue if you take it as calmly as possible. whatever happens, i'm just a short distance away. and i know luck is always on your side la, so no worries =D and seriously when are you gonna meet me and get your present? i spot some mold on it today, and its half rotten. lol! you better meet me soon or it will probably end up in the dustbin someday. =P

To Joanne:
Hey, really sorry to always make you bring books and notes to school for me where i always ended up not going. It must have wasted your effort and stuff. I know i might seem a little distance lately, but I'm seriously very glad with your relationship and hoping it will be better. Maybe its just me or perhaps i missed those little attention i used to have from my friends. OR i just wanted people to pay more attention to my opinions and existance. But oh well, i still treasure our friendship, so you don't have to worry about anything unless you don't lor =P. But hor, when you go HK better remember to get me some good stuff bah. =D


time for my medicine and a good night sleep.
i still have to go school tomorrow! OMG! SHERMAN AGAIN.

broken, pale wings
you're just a little tired from the overly blue sky
you don't have to keep smiling for someone else
it's okay to smile for your own sake


Regards,
sherri