I'm feeling so angry right now that i could literally explode. You know how it feels when you tried so hard to understand, and to make someone feel better when they think they’re annoying, yet they don’t see your effort?

Though at times i might not like what you said or don’t agree with your views, i laugh it off and accepted it because we're friends and i assume you do the same for me. But i don't know if you see that there are people like me who actually tried to understand you and there are also people who just yell back at you.

I never once told you before, but sometimes I feel so offended by what you said, be it intentional or not.

When i first told you that I’m craving for onigiri, you said "where is the best onigiri u have eaten??" I have no idea why, but I was expecting you to say the onigiri that you've eaten in Japan is so delicious and those at the supermarts are crap. yea ha, i've never been to Japan, neither did i experienced osen before.

When I got excited about making onigini, I googled and show you the onigiri tool set. You said "no need tools to make onigiri one leh, they use hand to make the shape". To be honest, do you really think i don't know that? i thought a normal response should be "wao such a cute tool set" or something along the lines.

When i mentioned that particular guy look different on the pictures, you said "all u can see is pic and video, how u know he look different in real life". I’m like shocked cause i never said that he look different in real life, all I’m saying is the pictures on google don't look like him on video. o.o

When i introduce you a book that i think is good, you ended up pasting a wikipedia webpage of that book for me. Shouldn’t i be the one to give you that link? Since I'm the one trying to tell you how good that book is. Or you probably think that i don't know wikipedia existed and you wanted to show it to me. OR MAYBE you're trying to correct me that it’s not 'receiver' its 'receiver of memory'?

when i told you about me spending one whole night trying to figure out css and you responsed with "css that part only got a few parameters.. whole night to do.. tried every possibilities??" i dunno, maybe css to you is like abc, but its not to me. so what if its just few parameters, i spend time trying to understand them clearly.

i mean gosh, what’s that all about? Some people can easily assume that you're picking on them because you give negative responses to every single comment! Ok, maybe I got it all wrong.

But do you know how surprised I am when you asked me do i play all the notes or just the melody for the piano piece? yea, i do not have proper piano lessons like you do, but what makes you think that i can't play all the notes? I might not know it more than you, but you don't have to make it seems like I’m that pathetic.

It may seem like I'm overreacting or whatever. but in just a single conversation i can feel offended like twice, thrice or more. And you always assume things because you didn't even pay attention and listen to what we wanna say. you always wanted to be different, wanting to be someone that is not as described and you ended up being so difficult to be with. You're such a confusing individual that sometimes you're so sensitive, and so aware of what other people think or say about you to the extend that you have become insensitive to others. You tend to see things too realistically that you're caught up in your world thinking you know the best, or i know her too well, i know it better than others, and it makes you judgmental on everything. You make people feel like no matter how hard we try we can never be good enough. You always throw people with your sarcastic views and make yourself seemed like you're higher than everyone else yet you have the lowest self confidence at the same time. You're so uptight and serious that sometimes a joke ends up being a serious topic. You really need to know that people get offended when they don't know you well, and even for me who known you for like 9 years, its still difficult to handle it.

I don’t care if you read it or not, and I don’t need a reply. I don’t want to know how you felt about me or this situation; I don’t want to go through a whole new process of anger. If you concluded that I'm the one thats at fault, then i apologize for it, I regretted and shouldn't have use you as a topic of my dreams. I don’t want to make myself dislike you and to make you dislike me. It’s a vicious cycle. I don't want to listen to whatever, so just leave it as what it is.